Week 13 (Service Card)

 

Has anyone besides me had the experience of not completing one service they had written down on their index card?

For me, it’s cleaning out my closet. I am completing every other thing I have written down, but not that one. Now I have to transfer it onto another card and wonder if I’ll have the same problem. It’s driving me crazy! Seriously. Of course, I’m sure somebody will try to link it together with some deep seated issue that I’m not ready to face. And that’s okay, because they are probably correct. But, if it’s not beginning to chap my ass! Like, just clean out the closet already.

This is the second week that I’ve completed every other task but that one. And it’s really not about time because with it being the Christmas season, I have plenty of that.

Anyway, I’ve been writing the 3 things I’m grateful for down on the index cards every night and the pile is growing like crazy. I notice they went from really simple things I’ve accomplished in the past to much more complex things like, “I’m not afraid to take constructive criticism.” The transition has been pretty amazing to witness. Leaving me to believe that not everything is about accomplishments. Sometimes it’s about the ways you’ve had to adopt in order to get Point A to Point B.

Well, I have to get ready to entertain family and friends.

Happy New Year to each of you, especially you.

Week 12 (Staring in the Mirror)

So, there I am, in all of my flesh and glory, with all of my strengths and weaknesses, staring into my bathroom mirror. I make sure the door is locked so that I am not interrupted by the children or the husband. At first, I am sitting down on the bathroom counter repeating my one sentence, but several minutes into it, I feel the need to doze off. Then I stand up and begin moving around repeating the same sentence over and over and over and over again. Yea, I proclaim it.

Suddenly, it’s as if the sentence, my enthusiasm, my faith, and my new blueprint mesh all together to take on a life of its own. Before you know it, I grab my fire engine red curling irons and begin speaking into it as if it were a microphone.

Latasha is standing in front of a room filled with people after being introduced by Ms. Keys. The people seated down on the floor are doctors who specialize in healing trauma, psychologists, sociologists, teachers, brain surgeons, and therapists from all over the world. In their hands I see note pads, lap tops, pens and pencils as they (like me) have been taking notes all day in order to make use of in their own professions.

I start off by smiling and looking deep into the eyes of the people seated before me. There is no fear, just a wonderful and sweet feeling of excitement as I have finally arrived to my goal. After taking a long deep breath, I begin, “My name is Latasha Dale. Currently, I am studying the effects of trauma on the brain, mind, and body with Dr. Bezzel Van Der Kolk at the Trauma Center located in Brookline, Massachusetts, and the program I founded, TIME To THRIVE, is now being taught at five different schools in the city of Philadelphia where I was born and raised. With all of that aside, I think it’s also important for me to let you know that I am a woman who always keeps her promises. Again, my name is Latasha Dale. You can find out more information about my program online. It’s an honor to be here with all of you. Thank you!”

I receive a standing ovation. And a smile shoots up from the pits of my stomach that I’ve never felt or seen on my face before. It’s a magical moment. It’s surreal. I have made it into a room of brilliant, educated, people fully devoted to helping people reclaim ownership of their lives and body after suffering from years of trauma. And I can think of nothing better or no other people I would like to be in the same room with.

I do this over and over again. I see the people. I hear my voice. I thank the presenter. I marvel at the number of folks in the crowd. I can smell the aroma of coffee that’s in the air. I hear the guy on the fourth row cough twice.

When my oldest daughter knocks on the door, it is 5:59, and I am just amazed at how the time flew by. I run back to the computer but I want just a few more minutes in the mirror. Because when I can look myself in the eye, and repeat what I desire over and over again, it becomes real. There isn’t a feeling of restlessness or boredom or even the feeling that such a goal can’t be achieved.

Anyway, after doing this exercise, and after the MKMMA Alliance comes to an end, I am going to work with a career coach. This course has really gotten me to take a good hard look at myself and suddenly I am able to pin point where the holes in my thinking are. It is these holes and character traits that I’ll share with my career coach so that they can help hold me accountable.

But, it’ll be me who moves the mountain though. It can only be me.

Week 11 (Honesty)

…is the best policy. Though, I must admit, I was a bit hesitant to write this post because somewhere deep down inside of me I am tired of facing this fact.

My husband does not mentally stimulate me. Now what does that have to do with the MKMMA Program, you ask? I’ll tell you.

These last twelve weeks have pulled me way out of my comfort zone and rooted me into a whole new way of thinking and being. I have found myself knowing exactly what I want to do and say. The people I want to surround myself with, and stay away from, and the fears (all stemming from childhood) that must be faced in order to start my program TIME TO THRIVE, among other things.

There isn’t anything that feels impossible to me at the moment because, as OG MANDINO states so eloquently, “If I persist, I will win.”

But along with these changes, my household has begun to change. I am more focused and less restless. There is a seriousness to me that neither he nor the children are used to.

So as I grow, create, and cement my new blue print, he basically stays the same. Which, all excuses aside, makes it extremely difficult for me to be happy with him.

For example: last night, I was going to write my blog post for Week 11, but he was in the bedroom watching television. The two oldest children were in the living room playing games, and the youngest was in her bedroom reading a book. If we owned a laptop, it would have been easy to go into the bedroom with the youngest to get my work done, but we don’t. So, I felt stuck. And then I became angry. Because it frequently seems like whenever I get my momentum going in something, he can’t or just doesn’t contribute anything to it. (I did not ask him to turn off the television because he would have started to pout.)

Now, mind you, my husband is a very content man. He has a pretty decent job, owns his own company, has a great group of friends, comes from a very loving and supportive family, and has me for a wife. So, if you were to ever ask him (as I have) do you ever feel like you want more out of life he’ll say, “Aside from money, and more opportunities to travel, not really.”

That attitude has always made it tough for me. 1) Because since we’ve been married, it’s always just been the two of us. 2) I am an empath. 3) I need help and lots of assistance to evolve except when it comes to me working on being a “better” person. 4.) I need a great deal of support in order to sustain anything I’m doing. If not, I become restless and will eventually move on to something else.

How does this play out?

About eleven years ago, I lost 100 pounds, but I wanted to build muscle. What did he start doing, unconsciously, of course: drinking more, smoking cigarettes, making bacon and eggs for breakfast instead of drinking my smoothies, etc. And after about 6 months, I was drinking as much as he was and had traded my own breakfast smoothies for bacon and eggs. Eventually, I let the goal of building muscle go, and settled for maintaining a healthy weight instead.
Why?

Because it’s…easier.

I feel like if my husband and I were on the same page, it would be a lot easier for me to attain certain goals. As a red, I do have the fire, passion, and creativity that it takes to get things done, but I also need someone to light the fire under my ass when I begin to get bored or restless. And I also need the person in my house, in my bed, on my team to be an active player in my goals and dreams. By the way, I am very clear this is more a post about my marriage, but fear not, I’ll be back with another MKMMA post by Friday morning.

Anyway, that is my truth for week 11.

 

Week 10 (A Master Mind)

 

Even without the webinar last week, I was able to maintain focus on my daily readings and sittings. This impressed me immensely as I am the type of person to normally lose focus when the holidays come around.

Because my husband is an avid television watcher, I have not been able to shut off all of the televisions in my home BUT because the New Year is coming, I am going to tell him and the children it’s one of the things I want to give up. It will be only for a week, unless I like the results and then I’ll extend it to ten days. By doing this, I am preparing EVERYONE for what is about to come and the backlash won’t be so terrible.

I’ll admit, that since I am not an entrepreneur or have a business (at this time) where I am responsible for selling services of any sort, I have begun to feel largely left-out of the MKMMMA experience. Especially when it comes to Tweeting and talking to others in the Alliance area. However, the fact that in 2016 and 2017 that will all change as I begin working with young ladies, the feeling is not one that really stays with me. But I would be lying if I said it wouldn’t be nice to have a career NOW so that I could go to work each day using Og’s advice.  Greeting my coworkers with love. Greeting my supervisor with love. Greeting the young ladies with more love. Being persistent when it came to getting more resources for my young ladies etc. Realizing that there is no way I could lose. Even as I typed that out, my body grew hot, so I’m just imagining how it will be in the future when I can really use everything that I’m learning out in the real world.

Last Monday, at the suggestion of my guide, I and two other people from her group began to mastermind. Both of them are yellow and I’m a red, so it’s going to be pretty interesting to see what kind of encouragement, help, and ideas we all come up with together.

Has anyone else realized that there are only fifteen more weeks left before we come to the end of the program? I have. Can’t say that I’m thrilled about it either. In fact, I’ve decided that when it ends, I’m going to (with the exception of the webinar) repeat the program one week at a time just as we’ve been doing now. I really want to strengthen all that I’ve learned so that my new blue print is cemented and mountain-solid. Because as Mark and Davene and Og have all said, with this sort of thinking, there isn’t anything we can’t achieve. And it doesn’t matter what we’re trying to do, or in what areas of our lives we’re trying to make great. It’s our thinking that will carry us over the hurdles and onto the promise land. I also am going to repeat the program because I have a lot of things I will accomplish in the future so it’s essential that my mind state be stronger than anything I face.

Another reason I’m going to repeat the program once it’s come to an end is because it makes you feel totally amazing about yourself and helps you to see opportunities that you might have missed before. Since I’ve started with the MKMMA program, dots have started to connect, and the confidence that I’ve gained have opened doors to places that were once shut to me. Because, let’s be honest, if you have the wrong kind of energy, nothing but the wrong kinds of thoughts, dots, and energy comes back to you. This is so apparent now.