Admittedly, I allowed the bombing that took place in Paris to interrupt my flow of thinking which meant that I wasn’t as focused on myself as I’ve been since I began the MKMMA program. I was all over the place this week. But last night I sat with the yucky feelings, and thought about the minutes I wasted, and that made all of the difference. I am back now.
Something that I have noticed is that, besides working with children and starting my own non-profit organization, it is very difficult for me to come up with a vision for myself when it comes to other parts of my life. I’ve mentioned this before. I believe that it’s because other than that, I don’t consider much of anything else to be very important. For example, it would be great to have bulky muscles, the kind that Serena Williams is practically known for, but it’s not necessary to me. In fact, I am quite content with just staying in the range of 140-150 pounds. This kind of honest thinking now has me re-evaluating my DMP.
What is becoming of extreme importance to me is being able to financially provide for myself, and to have a career that I can be proud of. The fact that I am currently unemployed and my husband is the sole provider for our family is beginning to weigh heavily on me. I don’t like it one bit, and in January of 2016, I am going to make the necessary adjustments to change all of that.
What I am gathering from all of the readings is that we are our most predominate thoughts. That which we think about ourselves most of the day is what our world without looks like. That’s the truth if you’ve never been told it. Coming from my particular background, I am used to thinking destructive and shameful things about myself, so the fact that much of the MKMMA program is about creating a mental attitude that is positive and constructive is really eye-opening. I can see how the cells in my body and brain longed to do something different and better. Every single day now, I am bearing witness to my thoughts being in harmony with the seven laws of the mind. This change in thinking has provided me with all of the proof I needed to know that “I can be what I will to be.” Because that’s what these last eight weeks has shown me.
If I am thinking a negative thought, I will run into a nasty bitter person, or silently mumble a curse at the man or woman who cut me off with their cart in the grocery store. However, just as soon as I change my thought to a positive one, and focus on it for a few minutes, the feeling is gone, and instead of silently cursing the person, I almost don’t even acknowledge what they’ve done. That is the gift of the brain, and the power of all every single cell in your body. They come to do the work. It doesn’t matter if it’s negative or positive. They come by the billions and trillions ready to do the work that your thoughts have put into action. And as soon as I change my thinking from negative to positive, I can literally feel the shift take place inside of my body.
I’ve made my intent for the rest of the time with the MKMMA program to do as GMA says, “Learn to keep the door shut, keep out of your mind, out of your office, and out of your world, every element that seeks admittance with no definite helpful end in view.”
My only aim now, and for the rest of my life is to become the sole commander of my thoughts, my attitude, and my personal goals. I will not allow any person or their problems to affect me or throw me off my square. Cultivating this type of mentality will mean that I will have to analyze my every thought and really put into practice everything that I’ve learned in the last eight weeks, but just imagining and knowing what will be possible after I gain total control of my thinking is what will keep me focused and persistent and determined to win